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This hits home in many ways for me. Such a brave share. I had a similar experience but wished i found God that soon. 🤍🤍 ive banished that satanic statement myself.

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I see, hear and feel you, Kerry. Thank you for recievINg my share and thank you for sharINg yourSelf 🤍 God IS always on time ⏰

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He IS 🤍🤍🤍🤍

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Apr 6Liked by Anja Smoliak

Thank you for sharing your experience Anja. Reading things like this help give me the courage to speak of my own one day. I want to write about how many abortions are the result of coercion on the part of the father of the baby, as was my experience-and something mainstream feminism completely ignores.

I am a lover of etymology too and just reading that meaning gave me shivers. An abandonment. It is- of self and of life, not just of the fetus. May we all reunite with that which we have chosen to abandon ♥️

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Thank you for your acKnowledgement, Sister. I appreciate you so much ♥️ I AM glad that it INspires and encourages you to speak to your own One day - when the timINg IS ripe and ready (thIS IS One of my many Prayers IN sharINg my story). I Know that when that day comes, that it Will feel like a soft landINg for so many Women.

Many abortions are INdeed the result of coercion on the part of the FatHER. My HeART IS with you Emily. IN a contrastINg, yet connected Way, many abortions are also the result of compliance on the part of the FatHER (as was IN my case) — out of fear of BEINg deemed "toxically MasculINe" (a concept Born of the FemINist movement).

Both of these circumstances / contexts reflect a profound misunderstandINg of Biblical MasculINity, which IS about leadership grounded IN Love, respect, reverence, protection and preservation, not domINation or passivity.

It remINds me of GENESIS, and the story of Adam and Eve. Adam’s failure was not just IN His action but IN His INaction; He did not uphold The Law that was given to Him by God first.

"May we all reunite with that which we have chosen to abandon." AMEN!

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Wow. Thank you for sharing this heartfelt and thorough perspective. I never thought of it this way. Honoring your courageous heart for sharing this. 🙏🏽

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Thank you for recievINg and for your acKnowledgment Ruby 🤍🤲🏼 I AM Humbled to Know you WEre offered a refreshINg lens and orientation through my share and story!

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I will be digesting this for a while.

I stand by my choice that the time I made it, I feel as though it brought me here today and for that I am grateful beyond. I pray for forgiveness daily. I thank God He let become a Mother.

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I see you. I feel you. I hear you. That's precisely my personal experience as WELL. I recognize my abortion experience as a necessary and vital piece to my TESTIMONY. You are already and always forgiven as His BELoved Daughter. Even when WE are unFaithful, His Faithfulness IS endurINg. Amen 🤍🤍

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Thank you Anja. I volunteered my time many years ago for a pro-life organization to help young pregnant unwed mothers see the value in their little babies. My youngest client was 13 years old. Fortunately, the young father’s own father was more than accepting to be the grandfather he was meant to be and to help the young girl and her unborn child(her mother had demanded she get an abortion, which she refused to do). The saddest case I had was of a young couple (young enough not to be in their 30s but old enough to be in their mid to late 20s) where the only recourse they could see was an abortion of their child. There was no way that I nor my counterpart could change their minds, I felt so useless and dejected when they left, knowing that a little life was hanging in the balance. I can only pray that they gave that child a life and did not snuff out the flame of life that God gave as a gift to them.

I definitely lost heart after that, feeling that I had failed God and could not see myself as that proper voice to stand up for the lives of the unborn. I definitely have a failure complex, and since then I have seen that some battles will be lost, but other battles will be won. Ultimately, it is more important that we soldier on and stay in the fight to win the war with God on our side.

Blessings on you for educating women and men on what abortion is and what it is not.

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